Well here I am again.I will continue on what I have started even if I do feel a bit lost.I went to the Doctor on Friday,Readied myself after all my nerves.I get there have my paperwork filled out and hand it to the receptionist.She tells me and my hubby to wait in the lobby while they check out my insurance.I waited over 30 Min's and she calls us up n tell us that since our limit in the insurance is $ we have to pay $ (sorry for not saying how much) but well we cannot afford that for a visit plus any extras they might make us pay.Well we left.I feel so defeated like I am trying to make my anxiety n depression manageable.But how can one do that with the Insurance this country offers.We have Blue Shield,n we pay for the family plan.I cannot get free Medicaid because hubby is able to get insurance.So I am right now trying to figure out the best course to get help.But I feel like I am drowning and there is no lifesaver.I have not sleep right in a week.I been taking sleeping pills and is still not helping.I tried bathes,sex,relaxation.I want to feel well again and I feel sad for all the other people who could not find the help and now are homeless.We need to figure out a way to help poor people who have no options when there mentally unstable and not judge them.I also have a very good support system and they will not let me give up Ty guys :)I am going to get better because well I want to.Dammit I will not give in to this disease I am a fighter, have been since I was a child.I will write another day more stuff.
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