The Decision

I have decided to finally find the help I need for my anxiety and depresion.It is a bit scary going to someone I do not know and will maybe judge me and find me inadequate to be a mother.I am afraid they will see me as a liar.That I am inveting my depresion for attention.I wish it was that simple becuase then I could shed it like an old coat and be again the Kris I was 3 yrs ago.Not scared of anything .Be able to shop alone,walk, and just get dressed in the morning and want to do stuff.But alas I do not want to do anything.Only reason I am going to the doctor,My family.Cause I am so used to this Kris I dont know what the old Kris looks like anymore and Like I said in the beggining I am scared of people I dont know judging me.Will the old Kris judge this Kris or will i emerge a blend of both.Wait and see.